Tuesday, April 12, 2005

I got a job!

I am at a temp job today...but I just received a call for a temp to hire position. The starting pay is more than I was making at Designer's Ink after 3 years. I will be working in Hutto, which is about 15 miles from my house...it is a 23 minute drive according to Google Maps, but it is in the opposite direction of the busy traffic.

Right now all I know is that it is an engineering firm and I will work in the morning in Hutto and then work in Pflugerville in the afternoon. Pflugerville is even closer to my apartment. They give me 20 minutes extra for lunch to accomidate for the drive time.

This sounds like it might be fun...and I always love learning something new.

Praise God...I gotta job.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Change is in the Water

I do not know what my dream means, if anything. But I do believe that God spoke a true word to me. I cannot get it out of my head. All the details of my dream may just be a product of circumstances, movies, events, memories or whatever; but I know the voice of God when I hear it. God said, "Change is in the water."

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

There is change in the water

Before I woke up this morning, I heard so very strong in my spirit. "There is change in the water. There is change in the water. There is change in the water." I dreamed of a black man wearing a black leather bracelet. I was on a journey through the jungle. I was leading two small children through a series of things (the children might have been my brothers). They had to be completed in order. They had to be completed correctly. One of the things that had to be done was to go onto a set of train tracks and follow them through a narrow stretch, there was no ground on either side of the tracks...if a train came...there would be nowhere to go. There were train engines on the tracks where we had to start. They were not on the tracks correctly, but they were coming and going sideways. These train engines were as long as a train real train engine, but only a foot or so wide. A noticed that a couple of them were not as tall as the others...they were only slightly shorter. We had to keep dodging the engines as they were pulling in and out really fast. Then we were on the tracks and running in the rain, we had to get off of the tracks before the next train came. We then came to a place where we were two wooden decks or bridges, we had to jump from one to another and then turn quickly. The distance that we had to jump was far enough that every time we would jump, if we were not careful we would fall off of the bridge into the water. I could crawl out of the water onto the bridge, but I could not go on without jumping and not falling in. Sometimes I would jump and make it but the children would not. I would quickly help them out of the water and we would jump again. Sometimes I would jump and the children would be with me...sometimes they would not. In the water were these green leaches with pointed heads. If we fell in the water, but did not get bit by even one leach, we could go on. I would pull the children out of the water and pull the leaches off. The skin of the leaches was coming off...like they were about to shed their skin. But there were so many of them they always latched on. The final time that I fell in the water, I knew to keep my body vertical, because the water was warm at the top and that was the only place where the leaches were. They would not attach themselves to my feet, because the water was too cold for them. My clothes would protect my body...I just had to keep my head above water. The last time I jumped I do not remember if the children were with me or not. As I got out of the water, there was a black man wearing a black leather bracelet. He told me that there was change in the water. He asked me if I had any questions, I hesitated and then I told him that next time I see him, I would like for him to explain water baptism. His train left...I woke up. There is change in the water.

Monday, April 04, 2005

Open doors

When God closes one door, He opens another one. But it is hell in the hallway.

Pastor Jentzen Franklin

The Three Most Important Decisions We Make in Life

Master
Mate
Mission

This is only a test.

There is no cheating...and no talking. When we are going through a tough time, we have to remember that this is only a test. You cannot cheat...you must take this test. You need to be quiet. Don't bitch about how hard it is...just take the test. Oh and by the way...the test is open book.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Gifting vs. Character

You must mature in your giftings and your character. If you grow in your giftings and not in your character...you will fall on your face, you will make it about you, and you will try to steal God's glory.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

[fuel] cell bible study

When God Seems Distant

We have all gone through times in out lives when it seems that God is nowhere to be found. We feel dry, we feel like God is a million miles away. It is like you wake up one morning and all of your spiritual feelings are gone. You pray…nothing happens. You meditate…nothing. You confess every sin you can think of, you ask every person you have ever possibly wronged to forgive you…and still…nothing.

The bible says that God will never leave you or forsake you, (Hebrews 13:5)

Okay…God, where are you at then? The truth is that God is always with us. God is always watching over us.

It is important to state that sin will separate us from God. God even turned away from Jesus when Jesus took on the sin of the world. But it is even more important to say that just because God seems distant, or someone tells you that they don’t feel close to God that there is rampant sin in their lives. Job’s friends are a good example of what not to do. We cannot look at others and judge why they are going through what they are going through…we can only be there to support them and to remind them that they are not alone.

God will use distance to bring us closer. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. The test of any relationship is distance and silence. To mature your relationship, God will test it with periods of seeming separation—times when it feels as if God has abandoned or forgotten you.

God called David a “man after my own heart” (1 Samuel 13:14), yet David frequently complained about God’s apparent absence. Read Psalm and you will find David saying: “Lord, why are you standing aloof and far away? Why do you hide when I need you most? Why have you forsaken me? Why do you remain so distant? Why do you ignore my cries for help? Why have you abandoned me?” Did David doubt that God was there? I believe that David was simply expressing what he felt. God promised not to leave us of forsake us…but God did not promise that we will always FEEL his presence. In fact the bible says that God sometimes hides from us. (Isaiah 45:15)

So what do we do when we don’t feel God’s presence? We do the same things that we do when we do feel God’s presence.

• We tell God exactly how we feel
• We trust that God keeps promises
• We focus on who God is – God’s unchanging nature (per Job)
o God is good and loving
o God is all-powerful
o God notices every detail of my life
o God is in control
o God has a plan for my life
o God will save me
• We remember what God has already done for us
• We encourage each other
• We pray for each other

I go east, but he is not there, I go west, but I cannot find him. I do not see him in the north, for he is hidden. I turn to the south, but I cannot find him. But he knows where I am going. And when he has tested me like gold in a fire, he will pronounce me innocent. Job 23 8:10

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

I got my email back

I was able to get in touch with Yahoo! and get my account back. I still do not know who did this to me or why.